Hey, I’m Kristi!
Covid19 had already made the first few months of 2020 pretty shit for me (and so many people). We were forced to cancel our wedding and honeymoon trip to the Maldives. We were devastated. Our silver lining was that we were able to squeeze in an impromptu Vegas-style marriage ceremony with just two witnesses and the kids two days before lockdown. No family could be there, no friends. No big party to celebrate our love…. It was to be the best hour of fun we’d have all year. Just two months into married life and I find a lump. A big one. I knew straight away what it was. I just knew. Test after test finally confirmed what I been fearing. Fucking Cancer.
We named it Mildred.
Mildred was so big that she was considered to be ‘stage 2B’ and was so rapidly, growing that she was considered ‘grade 3’. Fortunately, Mildred stayed put and did not make her way into my lymph nodes. I was lucky. Mildred was ER+ which meant she feeds off the oestrogen in my body, something I wish I’d known before spending 20 odd years on the contraceptive pill. I later found out that I have the BRCA2 gene mutation which meant Mildred was likely to turn up eventually, no matter what I did. Fortunately. Fuck you, Mildred.
One of my best coping mechanisms was to take control where I could.
Firstly, this was to chop off my beloved long hair and post it on social media to raise awareness for self-checks, as early detection saves lives! You can watch the video here: https://www.instagram.com/tv/COUFGqMHxul/?utm_medium=copy_link
Secondly, I practice Yoga and Meditation as often as possible. This helps me keep my shit together, and when I lose my shit (and frequently I do), it helps me get my shit back together and back under control. I honestly don’t think I could have got through my darkest of days without it.
To those of you undergoing treatment, keep going, it does get better. There are good days, and there are some really shit days, but the sun will always rise, even after the darkest of days.
1st of the month…check your boobs. Awareness and early detection is so important.
All the best